I guess right now I could say I took walking for granted.
Long story short (because I like to tell the story in person with my own little bit of visual enhancement) I dislocated my ankle a couple weeks ago and its not the shortest of recovery times. I don't have a history of injury, in fact I forgot the last times I had been to a hospital when they asked me because it had literally been half my life ago since I had gone last. So I'm not used to being this kind of lame
Anyways, I sat week or two trying to think of what I would write about in this segment of "my life update for the internet that is too long for a facebook status (because who uses those anymore anyways)" and I drew blanks. Sure I could talk about the trials of it; walking is hard, showering is hard, sleeping is hard, ect.
But who wants to read that? Better question. Who wants to write that? I'm a lot of things but I like to think I'm not a complainer. You get what you get and you don't throw a fit.
No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. 1 Cor. 10-13
I understand that this isn't the easiest thing to remember, but honest, I can't help but be stuck on how good I have it right now.
I have so much free time for activities!! I can't really do the activities part thats not what I'm getting at. I love how I get to spend the time I have. I'm a quality time person, meaning I like to show and receive love by spending quality time with people. As vague and mysterious as that is I've been stoked to get to embrace that these last couple of weeks. I like to sit with people (an activity that I can still do) I don't even have to talk. Honest I talk so much normally that I enjoy not having to talk or getting the chance to listen much more than hearing my own voice. When you get to the point where you can sit in a quiet room with somebody and just sit, you know its real. I've gotten the chance to sit with some of my favorite people recently and as insignificant as that might be to say or to read I've treasured those times. People are where I get my energy and I feel totally charged
Whats cool about recharging right now is the timing of it all. I'll be in Colorado in a month or so. "But you can't hike on a bum ankle!" Luckily for me I hate hiking so that's not even gonna be an issue. But what is most exciting for me going back to Colorado is the guys I don't even know yet. The guys in my project group, the guys I'll work with, the guys I'll ball with (injury permitting). I'm stoked out of my mind to start pouring into guys around me even if it ends up being just my roommates. I'm stoked out of my mind about everything about LT.
The group we're taking to Colorado is dope too.
Another thing I've been super grateful for is the group of servant minded people that fill my life. For real though. The community that I get to be a part of is the kind that spoils you. I had people there to pray for me as soon as my ankle was dislocated, I didn't have to wheel myself to the hospital, I didn't have to sit in the hospital for two hours myself, I didn't have to eat by myself afterwards, I haven't had to walk nearly anywhere (and when I did people were upset I didn't give them a call), I've heard "If you need anything just give me a call" from a good number of people and I know for a fact they all sincerely meant it. I haven't had to watch a single playoff Blues game alone, I'm taken care of.
-Change of pace for a second, heres my idea on whats going on right now in my life-
I've had to slow my roll though. Goin and goin with LT coming up and juggling the two jobs I put stuff on the backburner. Unfortunately some of the things I've been talking about being super grateful for were the same things I put on hold. Crazy how that works huh? I got a little whack and comfortable in my whackness, so God threw a curve. Part of this I think has got to be a chance to fix my eyes more solely on Christ anyways. Christians like the word stagnant but I think it was just a comfortable thing for me. I don't think Christ calls us to ever become comfortable in your walk. I had given up a comfortable amount of my life, a comfortable amount of my future, a comfortable amount of my plans. I said "God you can have all of this, look at how obedient and faithful I am" but I was keeping what I wanted and what I thought I could handle on my own. Cliche story.
But like hearing an old sermon taught by a different pastor or from a different angle I want to look at the scriptures and reflect on God's goodness and sing praises as if it was the first time I ever had the chance to.
I wanna be comfortable with being uncomfortable. I think I'm getting a lesson in that.
Wrapping up though I just wanna say that God is good. I'm in a good spot, stuff is weird (everything everywhere all the time is weird), my foot hurts.
And heres a Psalm that's pretty dope
Psalm 23
1The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,a
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
